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Let the moon hide the hunger...

Wed Nov 18, 2009, 9:41 PM
Do people honestly think about how they affect others? This is something that I've been contemplating for over a few weeks now, since before Halloween. It struck me odd when a patron at the library I used to work told me that she doesn't go to that library anymore because I'm not there. I'd never thought that I could have such an affect on a person, to change their life so much! But since then, I've been watching more closely, seeing the bonds between people. Even so much as a smile can change someone's day.
How much have I affected people here, online? I see comments saying, "You're alive!" and "I missed you!" And it has affected me quite a lot, a lot more than I thought it should. I suppose for a while I gave it no thought that I could affect people online in such a manner, thinking myself nothing but just another random person.
Do you take yourselves for granted as well? I know I look forward to reading comments from each and every one of you, and find it a respite from work and bills ^.^
I think I always thought that only famous or popular people could affect people, despite in my teenage years thinking on this very matter very gravely. Our actions can even dictate the outcome of the day for other people. How many times have you seen people on the road being rude, and how has it made you feel? Or rude people in a store... I've had it happen and sometimes, it ruins my whole day.
Take for instance, this one time my parents and I were getting gas at a gas station and they were having a sale. Buy some cookies, get a hot drink for free. So mom got herself some tea and some cookies, and then the clerk had the audacity to say she was wrong, when the sign was on the door! The people in line behind her were getting upset and the clerk and her were arguing up a storm. Even to this day, the hatred I feel for such... Stupidity! is great, greater than I care to even imagine. If I have that happen again, may God help that clerk. And the thing that irks me the most out of it all is that my Mom did Not get her tea and cookies, and that makes me very mad. huh. See, just a small encounter like that can affect even the sanest of us (oh, don't worry, I'm not saying I'm sane ;))
It's things like that that drive men to kill. It's the little things more than the big things... Popping gum, clacking fingernails... jealousy when there's nothing there... religion, absolute faith in a false god that fails you...

Do you ever think of the teachers that were mediocre, or do you mostly remember the ones who were awesome or evil? I'm sure they all helped shape your lives. Even the plumbers and electricians, the sewer plant workers or librarians, the gardeners... Even the people you never see can affect your lives. People don't think about how they can affect other people, but they need to.

I don't like the fact that I can affect someone's life so and it irks me that I have without even noticing until it's shoved in my face. "Look what you did! You made baby kittehs cry!" :lol:
I do mean what I say, and while this pondering has affected me so, I probably won't be able to change much :roll: I've gotten pretty set in my ways over the past few years... I know we can all be pretty stupid (why limit man's intelligence, but not his stupidity?) and so I can't expect everyone to try not to be. I'm sure we all already try our best. And I don't really want people to go around all day trying to figure out how they affected someone adversely, because that could cause guilt trips or god complexes :lol:
But just something to think about.

Before I go, I should like to share with you all my childhood hero. A man of great size and worth, I practically worshiped him. I think I may have, at one point. His name (to me) was Terry Two Bears and he was a real Mountain Man. He actually still is, though I've not seen him for years. He affected my life very strongly and probably didn't even realize it. I doubt he even remembers me at all.
He was the size of two bears, and he was the best knife thrower I'd ever met. I think I thought he was the best anything I'd ever met (I was about 5 when I first met him. makes him even bigger :D) and one day at the knife throwing competition, Terry Two Bears let a boy in my competition use his knives. I was upset enough at that, but when the boy won, it was because he used Two Bears' knives and I bawled. It wasn't fair at all to me. I wanted to use those knives, those magical amazing knives. That will stay with me until I die. It makes me think that gods like Zeus were childhood heroes like Two Bears... I'll probably tell my children stories about him like that ^.^
I can't even begin to name all the people who have helped me in life, who have saved my life even. Those who stopped me from doing the really stupid, permanent things. Or those who have been an example to me, of things to do, and things not to do. But I wish I could thank them all for everything.

Thank you all (especially if you made it this far ;)) for everything you've done for me, whether you meant it, know it, or not. :hug:
Yay for being mushy and sentimental! :dance: Seriously tho, thanks.

  • Mood: Distracted
  • Listening to: Gregorian Chant
  • Reading: Thinning the Herd - tales of the weirdly departed
  • Watching: Brother Cadfael mysteries and South Park
  • Playing: Arkham Asylum
  • Eating: hamburger
  • Drinking: Milk

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I'm keeping that other message for its links, but here I am, regardless. I actually get catalogs from "The Pyramid Collection" & I freakin' love that stuff. There is just so much of it that I wanted but couldn't afford before and I didn't want to carry it around, and, now that I have a bit of $, I realize that I don't need any of it... but I would still like to get a few things, though...

Now, about that time-statement...
Where would you go? Is there a particular culture & era?

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I've been pondering where I would go, but being a woman kinda makes these decision a little harder :( If I were a guy, Medieval Europe would be interesting, but I'm especially interested in a Celtic or Norse area from around 500 BC - 1000 AD. While I know that life back then was not entirely amazing, there are so many aspects I would love to check out. The Victorian and Edwardian eras would be cool as well, but I'd prefer European countries no matter the time period (mainly due to my femininity ^.^)
I would love to have a time machine so I can see how people did things, like Stonehenge, or Easter Island, or the first computer, or a million different things! :heart: I absolutely adore the weird things in history and hate how people limit our ancestors' abilities, saying "Oh that was impossible for them to do, must have been aliens!" B.S.

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:icongadgetsmith:
Being a Male with no interest in men should make My time basically anywhere a lot easier, but because of certain quirks of Mine... they would be more difficult... such as running from angry mobs {for being effeminate & supposedly gay}, the threat of being burned at the stake {Schizophrenia - "DEMON POSSESSION"/"witchcraft"} and I guess that certain eras & cultures have fancy enough "men's" clothing that I wouldn't have to wear "women's" & could quite possibly save Myself from quite a bit of trouble there.

I haven't decided for sure, but I'd probably choose Minoa. It was a cultural centre for the "entire" Ancient World. And... well, they had indoor plumbing {I consider it to be sad in some way that I base My decision on that}. I could easily visit Egypt, Babylon, Greece, + whatever else was around at the time.

Due to My prior knowledge of the future, I WOULD BE GETTIN' MY BLACK ASS THE F*CK OUTTA DERR BEFO' DAT VOLCANO BE-ATCH DECIDES IT'S ABOUT TIME BLEW ITS GINORMOUS ASS UP, cuz dat shit would ruin My day somethin' TURBO. {okay, so I'm not black, but if I were, then certain cultures & eras would be easier to blend into... like Egypt. Egyptians were so totally black! Don't tell Me they weren't, because you will fail if you try to convince Me otherwise. You know who else was black, while we're at it? Jesus. JESUS WAS BLACK}.{That will be all}.

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As an artist, I must beg to differ on whether they were "black" or not :giggle: I think they were more of a coffee color, with a little cream perhaps. Ok... I get myself into all sorts of trouble because I think it's funny to nitpick the color of human skin. Like, I'm not "white." I'm more of a light sandy color with a pinkish tint. My husband is a Prismacolor French 20%! :lol: (I have seen those who are a beautiful ebony color... that's a nice color)
But either way, Jesus was not a caucasian surfer dude with blue eyes and blond hair, like many depict him as. The Mormons are real bad about that whole thing... ^.^

Greece, Babylon, Egypt... those would be awesome to visit as well, but I don't think I'd like to live there. Minoa would be cool as well. I think I feel for my roots a little more tho, in the Celtic and Norse side (the Hebrew and Native American side is too small, has no say in the matter)
You'd probably do best in the Colonial era, if you want feminine clothing: [link] something like that... You'd be best staying away from lower class Europe. If you were a noble, it'd be a little more acceptable to be insane. They'd just hide you away ^.^ Lower class, we'd both be put to death at the first sign of anything. Me especially with my desire to fight and dislike of always wearing dresses... gimme some pants and I'm good! I like to be able to escape. Anything Norse would probably not be good for you (ruff n tuff dudes...) but the Celts might be ok (pre Christianity, because frankly, the church sure liked to get "holy" on everyone and took the word a little to literal and beat the word into people... which is why witchcraft was so looked down upon in Europe. Not sure about the Celts because the Christians destroyed most of their history, as they liked to do to heathen cultures...)

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:iconbowplz:

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